Sunday, February 24, 2008

Am i being too stubborn?

Nowadays, i found out that i'm getting more and more stubborn, not listening to others, ignoring, etc...

Having my own point of view and standing strong on it is good but sometimes we must try to listen to others' to.

Maybe i was much influenced by one of my coursemates that we must always find other's mistakes and prove them wrong...lolx, special theory eh?

However, the more people are trying to explain to me, the more disbelief i became...(depends on what situation and who is the speaker)

Well, just as what we learned in Permata Camp, maybe my glass of water is too full...

And it's time that i should empty them and start refilling again =)

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

Very meaningful

When you were 8 years old,
your mom handed you an ice-cream.
You thanked her by dripping it all over your lap.

When you were 9 years old,
she paid for piano lessons.
You thanked her by never even bothering to practice.

When you were 10 years old she drove you all day,
from soccer to football to one birthday party after another.
You thanked her by jumping out of the car and never looking back.

When you were 11 years old,
she took you and your friends to the movies.
You thanked her by asking to sit in a different row.

When you were 12 years old,
she warned you not to watch certain TV shows.
You thanked her by waiting until she left the house.

When you were 13,
she suggested a haircut that was becoming.
You thanked her by telling her she had no taste.

When you were 14,
she paid for a month away at summer camp.
You thanked her by forgetting to write a single letter.

When you were 15,
she came home from work,
looking for a hug.
You thanked her by having your bedroom door locked.

When you were 16,
she taught you how to drive her car.
You thanked her by taking it every chance you could.

When you were 17,
she was expecting an important call.
You thanked her by being on the phone all night.

When you were 18,
she cried at your high school graduation.
You thanked her by staying out partying until dawn.

When you were 19,
she paid for your college tuition,
drove you to campus carried your bags.
You thanked her by saying good-bye outside the dorm so you wouldn't be embarrassed in front of your friends.

When you were 25,
she helped to pay for your wedding,
and she cried and told you how deeply she loved you.
You thanked her by moving halfway across the country.

When you were 50,
she fell ill and needed you to take care of her.
You thanked her by reading about the burden parents become to their children.

And then,
one day, she quietly died. (touch wood)
And everything you never did came crashing down like thunder on YOURHEART..

Tuesday, February 05, 2008

untitled 2

Sugar taste so bitter,
Salt taste so sour,
Nothing is sweet.

Is there something wrong with my taste buds?
No, no, no...

It's because i'm in a very bad mood...
Trying my best to be patient, keep on telling myself, i can do this, just be strong...


Saturday, February 02, 2008

An unexplainable dream =(

I have had the wildest, weirdest, unspeakable and unexplainable dream throughout my life this morning...

It started off like this:

I'm having my final examination for the semester, a paper which we need 4 hours to complete it. Then, out of a sudden I received a call from someone saying that my grandparents is sick and all of my relatives are preparing to fulfill their wishes. (touch wood...i'm sorry, grandpa, grandma)

Then, due to my situation, the facilitator said that all of the students may leave the hall with the examination paper with us but to hand in to them in time. Therefore, i rush to my grandparents' house to help them. Just to learn that their wish is to have a proper wedding. And the proper wedding that they are talking about is to stand 2 candles upside down. (very swt) Therefore, we tried various ways to stand them, whether to melt the other end and let it stand, so on and so forth. Finally, we managed to make them stand.

Okay, the story of my grandparents just stop there like that...and it continues with my final examination. The scene is back in UTP village 4 where everyone is walking around happily buying stuff from the shop while i was in a very tension mood that i only manage to finish a quarter of the paper and i'm running out of time.

The paper is actually a Bahasa Malaysia paper. (which Malaysians don't have to take in UTP) I was too panic when i received the news and in such a hurry that I actually skipped the 1st question without knowing it. Therefore, after doing question 3, i have to skip back to question 1 and put an asterisk (*) saying that i missed the 1st question and sorry for the inconvenience caused.

Oh my.....then, i saw kuhan, nirash, adi and mildred pass by smiling asking whether i manage to finish the paper or not. I didn't ask them but their faces told me that they have completed it. Oh my.............there is definitely not enough time as i still have a lot of questions haven't answer yet and the time is ticking very fast, almost reaching the end of the time given. I was thinking, die la die la....

Then, "POP"!!!!!

I woke up smiling...realise that it was all just a dream =)

Aih, dreams are unexplainable, the minute you are here, and the next, you are at somewhere else...and those weird stuff you will do in dreams where it is impossible that it will happen in real life.

so, can anyone explain what my dream means???